Long time no post...

Happy St. Patricks Day!

There isn't too much to update on. I've been working like crazy and just really busy. It has been nice to get back to work, but my I miss my son terribly. I find myself crying at night :(.. For example, tonight I came home with Cole and just played with him, and was having so much fun, I looked at the clock and realized it was bath time. Cole and I played in the bath (see picture below :) ) and then I gave him his bottle and just cuddled and tried to soak in every minute of it. He fell asleep in my arms in the chair and it took everything from me to get up and place him in his crib. The moment I placed him in his crib and swaddled him he just looked at me with the saddest face and started crying.. He cried sooo hard, so that then made me cry.I cried because I didn't want to put him to bed, I wanted to be with him, just as much as he wanted me... We both were in his room crying our eyes out. I cried because I miss him so much, and feel like I have NO time with him.. NONE.. i hate it.. i hate it. i hate it! Just writing this post is making me cry.. I miss him..I have NEVER missed something so much, even when it is in front of me.... I want to be with him ALL the time. This STINKS!! I never ever in a million years knew how hard this would be.

Phil laughs at me because I check on him about 3 or 4 times after I put him down, I get in bed, get all comfy under the covers, and then within a minute or two, I fling the covers off of me, and say "I need to check on him" I dont know why, but I just want to be with him all the time....

Gosh.. I love him....

Cole slept through the night for the first time last night..The last few nights he has been getting up one or two times just wanting his Nuk, we plop it in his mouth and he goes back to sleep... last night, he went down at 8:40pm and didn't make a PEEP! until 5:50am! I couldn't believe it.. Although, Cole slept through the night, I did not. I woke up about every hour secrelty wanting him to wake up --- you want to know why - it is because I MISSED HIM!!!!!!!!!!! I'm crazy, aren't I?

On Sunday Phil put together his saucer. He really loves it. We plop him in it, and I put a pillow underneath his feet so they aren't dangling.. He just stares at the toys. Isn't he so cute??

Grandpap is in Canada... we sure miss him.. But gosh, Grandpap is keeping me busy with lots and lots of projects and tasks for work.... Grandpap loves this little boy so much!

I crack up when Cole is in his car seat, he some how snuggles his blanket up so close to his face.. He loves to be all covered and snuggled.